When the Storm Rushes In

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Its been quiet on the home front over here. I don’t know if its called writers block or a growing period, but the silence is not silence at all. My mind has been racing a million miles a minute, but expression of words will not come out. Until now that is.

Ive sat down at this computer several times over the last week thinking… “ok God, what do you want from me? How will you use me to day to lift others, encourage them & show them the light in darkness?”

Its one of those things where you want to share the joy, the good news of freedom, but when you are experiencing depression yourself, you often wonder, how can I help others when I myself don’t have it figured out.

This is where the cliche “take up your cross daily” comes in!  No seriously! The secret isn’t to have it figured out. The secret isn’t defeating depression or finding happiness that lasts a life time. It is waking up each and every single morning choosing Joy, choosing Gods way instead of the ways of the world. It is waking up each morning and taking up your cross (a death instrument symbolizing freedom) & pressing forward, trusting that God is in control. Trusting Gods word Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Knowing that God will walk with you through every storm and every victory.

Just over the last 7 days, many of my depression symptoms have started to creep back in. OH THE QUESTIONS… Am I good enough? Should I just give up? Is it worth it? When will this storm end? And then self deteriorating statements… I’m not smart enough. I can’t do this. I don’t want to get out of bed.

This thing called depression creeps in like a shadow at dusk. You don’t ask for it. You don’t know its coming. Just one day you wake up and BAM… Your brain functions flips like a switch. You sleep in a little more and a little more each day. You let small obstacles defeat you. You don’t want to hangout with your friends or even be out side. Then you begin to think you aren’t enough. That you will never be enough & that your efforts are worthless.

THESE ARE ALL LIES OF THE DECEIVER!!!! Satan, I commend you to leave in the name of Jesus Christ the messiah, the son of God! 

Step 1 to taking up your cross… call out satan’s lies & defeat them with the word of God!!

Guys! Jesus set the example!! He showed us how to defeat!

Matthew 4:1-11 “ Then Jesus was led by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted[a] by the devil.  After fasting forty days and forty nights, he was hungry.  The tempter came to him and said, “If you are the Son of God, tell these stones to become bread.” Jesus answered, “It is written:  [Defeating satan with Gods word!!]  ‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.’”5 Then the devil took him to the holy city and had him stand on the highest point of the temple. 6 “If you are the Son of God,” he said, “throw yourself down.

For it is written: (Satan trying to use Gods word out of context)

“‘He will command his angels concerning you,
and they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.’”

Jesus answered him, “It is also written: ‘Do not put the Lord your God to the test.’” Again, the devil took him to a very high mountain and showed him all the kingdoms of the world and their splendor. 9 “All this I will give you,” he said, “if you will bow down and worship me.” Jesus said to him, “Away from me, Satan! For it is written: ‘Worship the Lord your God, and serve him only.’” Then the devil left him, and angels came and attended him.

“But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.” 1 Cor. 15:57

“In all these things, we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.” Rom. 8:37

“Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith.” 1 Pet. 5:8-9

“Submit yourselves to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.” James 4:7

Sometimes it doesn’t seem fair. Why aren’t we protected from satan’s attack? Doesn’t God care about us?

The truth is, WE ARE PROTECTED! God loves us so much, he gave us an entire book teaching us how to defeat satan. He has given us AMPLE amounts of information on HOW to rebuke satan. God loves us so much, He is with us even when we don’t know how to fight.

Joshua 1:9 “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”

Counter every lie satan has ever told you with truth:

When your past begins to haunt you : I am a new creature in Christ. (2 Corinthians 5:17)

You are useless : It is not I who live, but Christ lives in me. (Galatians 2:20)

You’re not good enough : I can do all things through Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:13)

You’ll never measure up : I am God’s workmanship, created in Christ for good works. (Ephesians 2:10)

Google “satan’s lies & Gods truth” for more scriptures to help you defeat the lies that are pressing in on you!

As I lay in bed this morning, about to WAY over sleep, I had to remind myself that I am good enough. That I was not put on this earth to just take up space and die. God made me specifically me for a SPECIFIC purpose. Just like God made YOU specifically YOU for a purpose. Your purpose may be drastically different from mine and that is WAY OKAY! God needs all of his people in different corners of this earth to share his love and joy! We can’t all be in the same place with the same mission at the same time ❤ that wouldn’t make sense.


This is me showing up to help encourage through the darkness. This is me taking up my cross & letting our savior’s light shine. This is me showing you, that WE cannot do it alone. We need God’s grace. We need our savior to make a way for us. This is me opening my eyes! Remembering that I need to pick up my cross daily. Not just one and done. DAILY!

Never forget to smile ❤ you are worth it!

-Mauri Katherine

Excuses Demolished

If you say tomorrow tomorrow will never come. The right moment to begin will never come. Once you have more time, once you have more space, better weather, more money.

Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.

🤝 happy Friday friends19030374_1094012620731602_6315260946493106277_n

Vegetarian Fad Diet

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My Opinion On The Vegan / Vegetarian Fad Diet

First of all, what is a vegetarian? I can’t get all these words straight? Vegan, Vegetarian, Lacto-Veg, Ovo-Veg, Lacto-Ovo Veg, OH MY! #lionsAndTigersANDbears

What is a fad diet? What is a diet? What is the purpose? IM SO CONFUSED!?!?

Meat was always a fun subject in the Wilson house hold. Here is why… As a very young girl, almost too young to remember, my weekly & monthly Dr. visits were a pretty regular thing. Not because I had a deadly illness, not because I was accident prone or because my immune system wasn’t strong, but because my parents couldn’t figure out why I wouldn’t eat meat.

The Dr.s had to give me iron shots to supplement my mac’n cheese diet.

Once when asked, I told my mother that I didn’t eat meat, “because it got stuck in my teeth”. (I’m not gonna lie, I’m a super flosser even to this day. But there’s more to the story).

There were on and off days for many years to come. I had sleep overs at my friends house in elementary school. Depending on the day, and how hungry I was, determined how desperate I was to eat what their families cooked.

I spent many days and evenings with one friend in particular. Her father was a very skilled hunter. He always had deer meat, different bird varieties, and many other varieties of food at dinner time. I remember going to bed hungry most nights I spent over there, but her mother was a smart and compassionate woman. She caught on to my eating patterns and started keeping grilled cheese supplies on hand for when I made my appearances.

I’m sure this was EXTREMELY frustrating for my own mother. Probably even a little bit embarrassing too.

It was in 6th grade when I first learned what a vegetarian was. I didn’t know there was a “category” I belonged in… I didn’t know there was a “label” to be placed on my forehead. There weren’t smartphones or easily accessible internet. Most homes didn’t have a computer, and if they did, “google” wasn’t made into a verb yet.

It was lunch hour at Durant Middle School. The sixth grade’s turn in the cafeteria and hot dogs were on the menu. On occasion, I would find loose change in our couch and buy snacks from the vending machine instead of eating form the lunch line. This particular day, I only had my lunch card and I was starving!

I never really liked hot dogs, but in desperate times, I would eat them. This is one of those days. I hopped in the lunch line, and waited my turn. Im going to be honest, I don’t remember a single other food that was on my plate. All I remember is that hot dog, staring me in the eye. I figured, if I put enough ketchup on it, maybe I wouldn’t notice that it was a hot dog.

I went back to my seat ready to dig in. My VERY BEST FRIEND sitting directly to my right decided that this was a GREAT day to explain to me, in great detail, what hot dogs were made out of.

Have you ever heard bad news, and got sick to your stomach IMMEDIATELY? Well… to a 6th grader, this was devastating. My lunch was ruined on the spot. I didn’t know if I wanted to cry, throw up or go on a mission to save all the pigs on planet earth.

Now this might sound silly to most of you… but my world came crashing down.

A few moments later, I heard the voice of an angle beam from a few seats down. I don’t remember her name, and I don’t remember her face, but she said in one dainty whisper, “thats why I’m a vegetarian”.

THIS GIRL WAS MY NEW BEST FRIEND!! But… we all know how middle schoolers are…. Then I was the “copy cat” because I wanted to be a “vegetarian” and the pivotal moment of my existence was with this girl telling me that she simply chooses not to eat it. LIKE SERIOUSLY?? YOU ARE ALLOWED TO DO THAT?

OK so lets take a moment think about the age 11. Do kids usually get to pick what they eat? Or does mom make meals (maybe with a small consensus) and they eat what she puts on the dang table?

I don’t know about you, but I grew up with 3 brothers and sisters. NOT eating meat at this point wasn’t an option. I was old enough to know the consequences (dreaded Iron shots) and I knew I had to eat what my mother placed on the table or this girl was going to bed hungry.

Still, in the back of my mind I wondered, how did that girl from school not have to eat meat AND not have to see a doctor.

As I’ve aged, I’ve gone through many internal battles on the subject. The typical American diet includes some sort of animal product with every single meal. MOST American diets include VERY FEW Whole Foods – and 90% of kids ONLY source of vegetable is the potato, in the form of a French fry!!! (Fun fact if you didn’t already know).

Eating veggies and WHOLE foods, is just as important as getting COMPLETE protein in your body for MANY MANY MANY reasons.

Yes, you can live a full life from eating meat. You are eating something, that ate the greens for you. BUT why not get the nutrients straight from the source? (just a thought)

Really… It is MUCH MUCH easier to let the cow eat the grass, and then we can just eat the cow.

Anyways, thats a-whole-nother topic I’ll save for a different day.

My point? I knew there had to be a way to make this vegetarian life style work, but I just didn’t fully know how. I tried several times and failed due to lack of nutrients. I just didn’t feel right. (I also had a undiscovered gluten intolerance which made eating very hard for YEARS) For example… Veggie burgers made me SO SO SICK. It turns out… they bind some of them with wheat products… humm….

It wants until 6 years ago (age 22), when I took the initiative to research what nutrients your body needs to thrive and survive.

I have notebooks and notebooks full of information that ultimately gave me the freedom to choose what lifestyle I wanted to lead, and how it would affect my future.

So now let me answer some of the crazy questions I promoted you with in the beginning.

First of all, what is a vegetarian?

By Google definition: a vegetarian is a person who does not eat meat, and sometimes other animal products, especially for moral, religious, or health reasons.

I can’t get all these words straight?

Let me help you

Vegan – a person who does not eat or use animal products.

Lacto-Veg -do not eat red or white meat, fish, fowl or eggs. However, lacto-vegetarians do consume dairy products such as cheese, milk and yogurt.

Ovo-Veg – do not eat red or white meat, fish, fowl or dairy products. However, ovo-vegetarians do consume egg products.

Lacto-Ovo Veg – Lacto-ovo vegetarians do not consume red meat, white meat, fish or fowl. However, lacto-ovo vegetarians do consume dairy products and egg products. This is the most common type of vegetarian.

OH MY! #lionsAndTigersANDbears

So now, if you’ve made it this far, you’re probably wondering… WHAT CATEGORY DO I CLASSIFY MYSELF WITH?

I don’t.

I don’t put a label on it. I don’t claim to be a vegetarian, a vegan or an animal activist.

I live my life to best of my ability. I act on the things that I feel led to stand for, spend a lot of time in prayer, and trust that God made me who I am for a very specific reason.

Something that we have to realize as humans, is that everyones convictions are different. Everyones purpose on earth is very very different. Compassion is never a bad thing. Especially when it is gifted from God!  I would never judge someone for eating meat, and I expect the same respect when I choose not to. God changes our hearts one moment at a time for a reason.

We all have a different purpose, and a different section of this earth that our lives need to impact.

With that being said… my personal choice to not eat meat, especially when I don’t know where it came from, is a conviction that I’ve struggled with since I was a very young child. It is imbedded in who I am. If I had all day, I could tell you story upon story about moments in time when I was almost in tears over having to eat meat… or the first time I was served a rotisserie chicken. But I do know, that nobody cares LOL.

Through rational conversations, extended research, and many many hours of biblical intervention, I have discovered that the food I put in my body is MY choice. So, I choose to be specific on the quality, quantity and morality. I choose to not support the mass meat market. I choose a plant based life style I have the resources to supply. This life style is 100% about the resources available to the person!! I would highly advise against a plant based diet to someone who does not have the proper variety needed to thrive!

SO MOVING ON….

What is a fad diet?

A fad diet is a diet that promises quick weight loss through what is usually an unhealthy and unbalanced diet.

What is a diet?

The kinds of food that a person, animal, or community habitually eats.

What is the purpose?

YES, veganism, or vegetarianism can be used in a bad way. It can be used as a “fad diet” to loose weight quick. Basically the idea is, if you FULLY restrict your diet to only lettuce and carrots, you’re going to lose weight. DUH… you’re starving yourself! Try restricting your diet to only potato chips and ketchup… same results.

WHEN I SAY DIET —- I just mean your lifestyle choice. People who eat fast food every day… they have a “fast food diet”… Its as simple as that. Diet doesn’t declare restriction or determine weight loss, it simply describes what you put in you body regularly weather it be good or bad.

I want to make this one last statement before I say goodnight. If you are eating “vegetarian” to solely lose weight. I would HIGHLY suggest to reconsider. This is why: If you restrict your diet just to simply lose weight, it might work. Then what happens when you get sick of eating that way, and go back to eating how you used to. YOU GUESSED IT… you will pack the lbs right back on.

What I would suggest for you instead, is to start being mindful about what you eat and when. Take a moment to think, “is food controlling me?”. There is a chance, if you try to give up… say… refined sugar for only a day or two… and you cant do it. Food probably has a controlling factor on you, which is the source of your problem. NOT the fact that you’re eating meat.

When food starts to control your brain, you can easily eat an extra 1,000 calories a day, that your body doesn’t need… with out you even noticing! Quick breakfast through the drive through, Snacks at work, take out for lunch, rich sugary drinks and extra large dinners (maybe even a midnight snack). It all adds up.

To wrap this thing up… Keep in mind, there are many other reason to seek a vegetarian diet other than conviction and fad dieting… most very valid and purposeful reasons.

This is in NO way a message to put anyone down. My hope is to share, and inform.

I wanted to share my own personal testimony, and encourage those who feel lost, confused or curious.

From one simple human being to another,

I hope you have a spectacular night… and never forget to keep smiling =)

 

-Mauri

Vegan Chilli

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Making my favorite dish in the whole world… Vegan Chilli!!! 😛 Why vegan? CAUSE ITS GOOD DUH! 

I get a lot of hate about my wanna be vegan diet, but I say… you can never have too much compassion! You can’t knock it until you try it!!

Recipe:

1 can tomato sauce (no salt added)
1 can petit diced tomato (no salt added)
1 can of corn
1 can black beans
1 can kidney beans
1 chopped red pepper (add at the end for a crunch)
1 cup of white instant rice (you can do brown rice if you have time to pre cook!)
2 packages of McCormick Gluten Free Chili Seasoning
A PINCH of cayenne pepper if you dare ;x

MIX & BRING TO A SIMMER …. ENJOY!

= BEST CHILI EVER!

I HOPE THIS MAKES YOU SMILE AS MUCH AS IT DOES ME =D,

-MAURI