Life Should Be Different

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One of my favorite places to be is right here in my recliner with this sweet boy in my lap. I love to sit here at the end of the day and reflect. I don’t even mind that he’s a “wanna be lap dog” at SEVEN years old! His puppy snuggles are the best!!!

You know, I always imagined life being a little different at 27 years old. I always thought I would be married with a few kids in a larger house by now. Here I am, a fur mom, sitting in my tiny quite house praising God for all the opportunities He has placed in my path to help & serve my community. God had different plans for me and I’m okay with that!

I am now engaged to the man of my dreams, building an empire for kids of many generations to escape to and find their passion through dance. There was no moment before now that I would have been ready for these blessings. You can’t base your life off of a standard set by the world.

I didn’t always have my life aligned properly. I had a few toxic relationships in the past, and I let my values suffer because of convenience. I traveled through years of depression that I didn’t fully understand how to handle. I may not have been the best role model in my younger years. I didn’t understand the importance of proper nutrition or how to take care of my body & I KNOW I would not have appreciated the humble, gracious, leader Jesse is until the exact moment that God placed him in my life!

So, as I sit here in my recliner, I think of all the years I spent declaring how life “SHOULD” be. Im sure that God is just up there laughing at us when we do that. I hear teenagers, and friends of mine in their early twenties saying things to me about “just wanting to know who their future husband is already”. I know that no matter what I say to them, they will never truly understand, until that man walks into their life.  Or when they say to me “I wish I knew what I was going to be when I got older” — I’ve learned so much over the past 15 years of my life. BUT the most important lesson that I’ve learned is that its not really about the destination, its about who you become along the way. Be Patient with yourself. God has to mold and shape you into this “mature” being, before you will be ready for the blessing. Otherwise you may miss it completely.

Jeremiah 29:11 “11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

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